Jamica El

Vol №009/9.5

Jamica El
Vol №009/9.5

This week’s mix started off with a tribute to live music but just as I was about to press SEND, I learned of the tragic death of Nipsey Hussle. I’m not one for social media rants so I’ve, instead, decided to share my feelings here on my own personal website.

My boyfriend read me the news that Nipsey had been shot several times in L.A. as details were just coming in. My immediate response was “who would wanna shoot Nipsey Hussle?” Naive, I know. But, honestly, I’ve only every been able to see him as a family man, a man of the community and a progressive-thinking artist-preneur. Sometimes, I’m honestly so loving that I can’t imagine people having haters, or worse, enemies. That’s not a bad thing, more like, just a thing.

So, I went on for the next hour thinking his story would turn into one of triumph like many hip-hop artist who’ve been shot and injured in the past, only to heal and share their triumphant story later. I could not have imagined that today would be the last day of his life. Worse, even as an empath, I have become so desensitized by the constant information coming at us each day. I didn’t even take a moment to stop, I just thought… “He’ll be alright.”

I’m devastated by our brother Nipsey’s departure. This loss is a deep one for the hip-hop community and to the culture. He is a father, a husband, a son and so many other things. I can not stop thinking about this wife and his children and I know that’s the new mom in me. No one deserves to have their life cut short but now that I have my own family that possibility has shifted to encompass more that it did to me previously. I am genuinely praying for his family.

On a more positive note, I think it’s beautiful that he married his love just a short while ago, that they shot such an amazing spread for GQ recently, that he’s contributed so much to his community and, that his legacy will live on his children and community. Even as we mourn there was so much beauty in scrolling through and entire social media timeline of Nipsey Hussle. His is a life that has most certainly touched so many in a very genuine way. It’s all that any of us can hope to do in our short time here with one another.

Thank you for reading my rant. Excuse my grammar and spelling (and maybe lack of cohesion) as I’ve just let out a conscious stream of thought. Please tune into what your mind, body and soul requires to feel cared for this week and as we continue to grieve this great loss. I hope music helps.

Prayers up, Blessings down -

J.